27. The mind dreads restlessness and uneasiness. But the desire for Darshan is not as keen as the uneasiness. Were it so, the condition of detachment and melancholy would prevail and bliss would be readily experienced on applying the mind to
Charan, Swarup and Nam. There would be no uneasiness if desires and impulses disappear. But the mind is so constituted that it cannot desist from giving rise to evil desires and impulses.
It is for this reason that it does not get bliss and pleasure (in Abhyas).
And when, on realization of this pitiable condition, the mind feels sorry and repentant, it becomes uneasy. But do not be disheartened.
Huzur Radhasoami Dayal will effect its correction by His grace and mercy, but gradually. It is not advisable to smash and destroy the mind in a day, for then it would not be able to regulate the functions of the body properly. Hence it is proper that this is done slowly and gradually.
28. All activities in this world are carried on through the instrumentality of the physical body. It is the course mind which is functioning in the body.
It discharges its functions with due circumspection, taking into account all circumstances, the pros and cons, and troubles and comforts pertaining to this world.
But in the Parmarthi activities, it feels uncomfortable and goes to pieces. It, therefore, does not take proper interest in it. No doubt, Surat (spirit)
is endowed with love. On hearing the discourses of Sat Guru, the Surat longs for attaining Parmarth.
But since, at the moment, it is under the sway of the mind, the latter does not allow it to apply itself to Parmarth and make any progress in it.
At the time of Abhyas the mind shows laziness and lack of interest. In the first place, it ignores and forgets discourses on Parmarth and the determination to engage in it. But in case it happens to remember the same, it becomes languid, that is to say, it does not enthusiastically accept Parmarth Bachans, and does not apply itself to Parmarth.
In the matter of Parmarthi expenses too, it suggests dissuasive ideas. In such an infirm state, if anyone ridicules Parmarth,
the mind becomes all the more unenthusiastic, and then does not apply body, mind and wealth even to the extent to which it was otherwise prepared.
This is the cause of failure in all cases. This condition will continue for some time. When affection will have been deeply instilled into the Nij Man (higher mind),
love will begin to grow. And that love shall endure.
|
